So, almost two weeks ago now, I made a post on this blog about deciding to go entirely wholefoods vegan for January. It was one of my first posts here and I was extremely optimistic about it.
In this post, I’m coming clean about the fact that it hasn’t been entirely going to plan.
Now, it hasn’t been a complete disaster. I’ve definitely been eating considerably better over the past few weeks, and I haven’t been bingeing and using food as a crutch, or starving myself the way I would have done a while ago under similar circumstances. I’ve been eating tons of fruit and veg and I’ve also stopped snacking on anything that’s extremely sugary and/or processed, which I’m quite proud of.
The fact of the matter is, I just haven’t been feeling great recently. January is always a difficult month for me and my mental health is something that I struggle with. Transitioning to veganism two years ago really helped me with my depression (which I might write a post about soon), and travelling, therapy, and working out have done wonders for my anxiety. However, I still have depression and anxiety and, although I’m better and dealing with them now, they’re always there, running in the background.
Because of this, it’s been tough to find the energy to make sure that everything I eat is a whole food. I haven’t been able to find it in me to really care that much if I eat something with olive oil or something that’s a white carbohydrate. Making sure that I actually eat decent meals at normal times when I’m feeling low is a challenge in itself, let alone making sure that what I eat fits in with a set of rules that I’m unfamiliar with.
Being mostly wholefoods vegan (by which I mean about 95% of the time) is a goal of mine and it’s definitely something I’ll try to achieve by the end of the year. However, I think I would benefit from easing myself into it and giving myself time to get used to it, rather than trying to go all in and feeling like a failure when it doesn’t work, which is kind of what’s happening here.
I’m also heading up to London this weekend and I’ll want to be able to eat at my favourite vegan places there. It’s something that I’m really looking forward to and it’s helping me with the fact that I’m feeling quite grim in general.
I’ll for sure be continuing to explore different wholefood recipes and integrating them into my life, but I think I threw myself in at the deep end with trying to do it for the entirety of this month and I feel like a bit of an idiot.
Thank you for reading this blog post, if you’re here it means a lot to me.